aug 21 in post adolescence

Here i am , in a 8 mixed room in Akureyri, Iceland.

this is one of the cheapest offer i can find online.

the squeaky noise from bunk beds, roommates come in and out during day and night. when i want to change in the room, better be as quick as possible.

not to mentione the time limited shower and shared toilet.

Part of me wish that i could just travel light and be able to chill out in the airline lounge. and maybe take a sip of complimentary cocktail.

travel in style and no need to worry about luggage limitation.

but here i am, a 30 year-old to be, never checked in any airline lounge, never got upgrated nor speed boarding.

thought that i could do better when i turn 30 when i was young.

now, i am just a boudget traveler like i used to be when i was 21 years old.

but then think again, a chic traveler is that what i really want to be???

maybe all those "inconveniences" are meant to be otherwise i wont be able to meet all those people who have little connection to my life.

elementary school teacher from NY, UBC exchange student who just show me his reward from dumpser dive, part time DJ from Germany who borrows my shampoo half naked and a lot more.

it's just like i meant to be go on this trip by myself.

a couple of times during this trip in Iceland i thought about i should have drag someone with me so that in the future when i talk about this trip, i will have someone to share.

and of course this someone can help me avoid a lot of "just one?" or "you are travelling by yourself?" awkward moments.

but, it's actually a very selfish idea.

ever since i say goodbye to my adolescence, all i want to be is smart, independent, sharp, rational, sensible, tasteful and sophisticated.

(not quite there yet, but i am not giving up.)

and i guess i can't be like that if all i want is running away from difficult or unesay situations. 

so maybe the long and lone journey is meant to be so i can learn how to be brave. 

whenever and wherever i need it, i know i can be brave. 

and furthemore, the journey leads me home. 

if i didnt have a chance to get lost, i wont be able to know i was on the right track. 

i was lost so i can find myself again. 

l left so i can find my desire to come back again. 

from august 2012 to june 2013 i took 29 flights, traveled for more than 98,000 km

if only all of them were operated by one airline, i am sure i can chill in business class on my way home.