aug 21 in post adolescence

time to change i told myself.

i cleaned up all the post on the wall in front of my desk.

then i packed almost all of the toy on my desk and put them into a box under my bed.

after that, i started washing my begs. there were 7 begs.

while the washing mechine was doing its job, i tried to make more space for the packages coming in july.

i relocated things in my drawers. i found very old photos, old birthday gifts, souvenirs from denmark.

as always i save the best for the last: my cds!

it's not a esay job as i realized through the cleaning process.

it's not about how many stuff i have it's about i want to keep EVERYTHING.

cuz there is a stroy behind everything in my room, once it means somthing (even just a little) to me, i want to keep it. 

but it's time to change i told myself again.

there will be new painting soon (i hope).

i feel like i am digging, try to dig out the old me as there was a 2 year blank for me in this place.

yet, i don't know if the treasure i am looking for is what i want or not.