aug 21 in post adolescence

why sitting in the room like a couple who dont love each other anymore, only stay together to give their children a complete "home".

i am tired, really tired.

sleep only 4 hours a day, sorry i am not Napoleon, i dont want to conquer any land.

watch less than 20 movies a year, i know i am not writing IMDB but thats what makes me Elsie.

i can barely come up with my annual top 10 becuz the new artist i know a year is less than 10.

the picture i took doesn't tell a story. the story i wrote has no statement. the statement, i made no statement...

papers, postcards, posters and flyers lying on my desk, they look no different from recycle paper but they are the message from all over the world.

tear, i can not store them anymore in my eyes but i cant find a good excuse to release them.

my heart is like a peeled fruit, vulnerable but keep inviting for the moment of smash. becuz it's necessary.

there is no glow in my eyes, no child lives in my heart hanse no creativity.

the world i used to know collapse in front of me. the rising city, i dont know, not even a little.  

i am tired, but most importantly, i lost my confidence, i feel incapable.

same thing keeps happening to the same people, that's the person's problem, not the rest of world.

thing would be different if i knew what i should do and how to do it.

it's no need to work overtime every day, and it should not be either. 

be stronger, be tougher, be better.