aug 21 in post adolescence

video8, a camera introduced by sony in 1985.

unlike its BIG rivals, the video8 camera is small enough to just fit in its users hand.

therefore, a very popular home entertainment machine was born.

10 minutes ago, i was watching a video of some family occasions which original shot by a video8 camere but now it has been converted to a wmv file and stored in a disk so i can watch it on my macbook. 

the time in the video shows 1991, at that time i was still a teenager who really wanted to be different wanted to be someone else wanted to be cool. 

i saw my mom with a funny and ridiculous hair style but it was very fashionable in 1991.

i saw my sister who likes to make fun with me now but with a rarely smiled face in 1991.

i saw my black belt bike maniac brother had apple on his cheek in 1991.

and i saw my dad.

he was on the video maybe less than 10 seconds. why the camera didnt stop on him longer?

i can still remember his smile, his signature and his movement.

before he went back to his camp he always sits next to my bed and told me a story about a black swan and a white swan.

but i cant remember his voice, not even a little.

in that 10 seconds, i hope i can hear something from him and i wish that can help me to remember his voice.

but i cant. i cant even remember my own fathers voice.

how i wish he just stands by me every moment now and then when i need him. 

he cant but i still have my mom, my sister and my brother stand by me.

so when i think of him i told myself, be brave for the living ones.