no matter where you are, distant or nearby
thank you for helping through this year
yes, i've left home for a year
the first 3 months in bupep was the time that i really enjoyed.
and it was also the first time i felt that i am capable to take care myself.
a lot of things happen in that summer, probably it was one of the few summer that i wasnt wailing when time pasted day by day.
i felt i have a clear goal to achieve, it's not for anyone else it's for myself.
i was being extra friendly and out going since i arrived. why?
because i read some people's stories about being discriminated in here.
to be honest, i am really afraid of this more than my bad english before i came.
the suggestion from those people is being active and trying to involve in their (locals) life.
i dont know if i did the right thing or i came to the right place, the only bastards i met were the embassy people, customs and airline staff.
however, life is easier for me in here cuz people dont care about me. there are less people i need to pleased. i am forgotten but in the way i like. i like spending time with friends here with intelligent conversation but i also like spending with myself. let all the thoughts flow. build my own world and find my own happiness. yes, everything starts with "I" and it's all about me.
in the academic area, of course i gained knowledge (and that's suppose to be the most important thing XD).
but i found what i've gained the most is confidence.
i feel confident when i express my mind and it doesnt matter if i am right or wrong. the thing is i am able to say what i think and to know other's thoughts.
if you ask whether i found this program benefit my future career (if there will be) or not. in fact, for now i dont know. but my life is not all about career. there is a real life i am living (or suffering) and all the experiences just add varieties of it.
june 18 2007 i left the place i live for 23 years. june 19 2007 i stepped in the sacred place for rock fans, the home of hooligans, the united kingdom.
