maybe i shouldnt stay in the europe
when i start thinking about all the weird things that happened since i arrived
uk: lost in track, weird people, drunk people and rude people you name it
france: my misfortune even stated before i was actually in paris
switzerland: the first news i heard in the train station was: everyone must evacuate from this please cuz there was a “very suspicious package”.
netherlands: for no reason the customs decided to make fun of me
italy: usb crisis that almost destroyed my dissertation and strangers insisted to know my name.
spain: my bag was stolen and a man about my dads age or even older tried to hook me up.
czech: a guy took of his pant in front of me on purpose.
none of these things have ever happened when i was in tw.
i believe if i pay attention to those details in my life i might be able to find out “the sign”.
maybe i should have a second thought or i should just go for it.
in this case, i think it’s time to go home.
the first time i decided to go home, in a way it was auke who changed my mind.
the second time, i think about going home i got an internship and few calls for interview.
the third time, this time, bit by bit i stop denying that london is not the place for me.
i finally face the fact that all the connects i have in this land will disappear.
there will be some people i will never see them again for the rest of my life.
i try to let go of things and people
and tell myself i should go home when the internship ends in the end of april.
but meanwhile another worry emerged--what if i will be stock in tw forever?
what if the things i used to escape from hit me again? where can i go this time?
some friends in tw told me they are leaving to somewhere else soon.
others who are now in the other part of the world told me they are coming back.
in an airport a old couple who live in spain gave the their card and inviting me to visit me sometime as they have a daughter who is about my age.
why at this moment? i want to know why.
if all the weird things lead to the sign of going home, how about these?
也許我跟歐洲真的犯衝
在我開始回想從來之後所發生的一切
在英國 我遇到無數的怪人
在法國 從辦簽證開始就不順
在瑞士 一下飛機就遇到車站放了“可疑包裹“ 所有人都得撤離
在荷蘭 海關是第一個make fun of me的人
在義大利 論文差點交不出來 還有奇怪的路人硬要知道我的名字
在西班牙 被偷 在千挑萬選的酒館被老人搭訕
在捷克 有人當著我的面脫褲子
以上的一切 從來沒有發生在台灣過
我相信生活中的小細節都是一種徵兆
暗示我 也許應該去做 也許應該不要去做
我想我該回家
第一次我決定要回家 auke某種程度上 阻止了我
第二次我開始考慮要回家 一個實習的機會找上了我 然後又有幾通希望我去面試的電話
第三次 一點一點的我開始不再否認倫敦不是我的落腳處
決心開始接受在歐洲所有的關聯 即將消失
也許 某些人 我這輩子 再也見不到
我開始 放下
到四月底結束的實習是我該回家的時機
但是 我卻開始擔心 也許我回去之後 這輩子就這樣卡在台灣
也許當初我所逃離的 很快的 會再回來 到時後 我可以去哪？
在台灣的朋友跟我說 他們即將離開
在地球另一端的人跟我說 他會回來
在陌生的機場 一對住在西班牙的老夫妻給了我他們的地址 邀請我有天去拜訪他們
為甚麼在這個時候
如果 所有奇奇怪怪的徵兆告訴我要回家 那這些呢？
when i start thinking about all the weird things that happened since i arrived
uk: lost in track, weird people, drunk people and rude people you name it
france: my misfortune even stated before i was actually in paris
switzerland: the first news i heard in the train station was: everyone must evacuate from this please cuz there was a “very suspicious package”.
netherlands: for no reason the customs decided to make fun of me
italy: usb crisis that almost destroyed my dissertation and strangers insisted to know my name.
spain: my bag was stolen and a man about my dads age or even older tried to hook me up.
czech: a guy took of his pant in front of me on purpose.
none of these things have ever happened when i was in tw.
i believe if i pay attention to those details in my life i might be able to find out “the sign”.
maybe i should have a second thought or i should just go for it.
in this case, i think it’s time to go home.
the first time i decided to go home, in a way it was auke who changed my mind.
the second time, i think about going home i got an internship and few calls for interview.
the third time, this time, bit by bit i stop denying that london is not the place for me.
i finally face the fact that all the connects i have in this land will disappear.
there will be some people i will never see them again for the rest of my life.
i try to let go of things and people
and tell myself i should go home when the internship ends in the end of april.
but meanwhile another worry emerged--what if i will be stock in tw forever?
what if the things i used to escape from hit me again? where can i go this time?
some friends in tw told me they are leaving to somewhere else soon.
others who are now in the other part of the world told me they are coming back.
in an airport a old couple who live in spain gave the their card and inviting me to visit me sometime as they have a daughter who is about my age.
why at this moment? i want to know why.
if all the weird things lead to the sign of going home, how about these?
也許我跟歐洲真的犯衝
在我開始回想從來之後所發生的一切
在英國 我遇到無數的怪人
在法國 從辦簽證開始就不順
在瑞士 一下飛機就遇到車站放了“可疑包裹“ 所有人都得撤離
在荷蘭 海關是第一個make fun of me的人
在義大利 論文差點交不出來 還有奇怪的路人硬要知道我的名字
在西班牙 被偷 在千挑萬選的酒館被老人搭訕
在捷克 有人當著我的面脫褲子
以上的一切 從來沒有發生在台灣過
我相信生活中的小細節都是一種徵兆
暗示我 也許應該去做 也許應該不要去做
我想我該回家
第一次我決定要回家 auke某種程度上 阻止了我
第二次我開始考慮要回家 一個實習的機會找上了我 然後又有幾通希望我去面試的電話
第三次 一點一點的我開始不再否認倫敦不是我的落腳處
決心開始接受在歐洲所有的關聯 即將消失
也許 某些人 我這輩子 再也見不到
我開始 放下
到四月底結束的實習是我該回家的時機
但是 我卻開始擔心 也許我回去之後 這輩子就這樣卡在台灣
也許當初我所逃離的 很快的 會再回來 到時後 我可以去哪？
在台灣的朋友跟我說 他們即將離開
在地球另一端的人跟我說 他會回來
在陌生的機場 一對住在西班牙的老夫妻給了我他們的地址 邀請我有天去拜訪他們
為甚麼在這個時候
如果 所有奇奇怪怪的徵兆告訴我要回家 那這些呢？
