aug 21 in post adolescence

it's actually not that easy when i truly experienced it myself. 

when i saw Spain won the world title, i am so happy as if i am part of the team. 

when i realized you are getting popular not only in Taiwan but most of the east Asia, i am happy that they heard your talent.

but at the same time i knew, you will no longer be mine. i am just one of a million, one fan out of a million.

when i knew that you got an offer from graduate school, i am happy because i know that's what you want.

when i heard that you quite your job and move oversea, i am really happy that you made a brave decision and listen to your heart. 

but i knew what follows by. you will have to leave. leave home, leave Taiwan, leave me. 

sometimes i hope you are less popular then you could have spend more time on music not media. and sometimes i wish you are just right here being my listener and advisor.

it is not easy to be happy for someone with all my heart. 

i dont know how to deal with the feeling when people are gone so i choose to leave first. i left home, left my friends, left the place i like again and again.

and now it's the pay back time. you are away from me maybe we are in the same time zone or maybe not. or we dont even live in the same season. so i realize that's the kind of feelings you been through when i was away. 

my family and friends, i just want to let you know although i feel sad when you are not around still at the same time, i am happy really happy for you starting your own journey.